Monday, May 29, 2006

So. Today I went shopping for an outfit for graduation, which was rather frustrating. It took me three hours to find something that was just right. This took three hours away from my end-of-the-term Spanish VI project (a timeline of the entire history of Spain), so I've been scrambling to get all of my homework done since I got home around 4.

This last week of school seems so pointless. I wish they'd just throw up their hands and say, "All right! No sense in stressing you out any longer! You're done!" And then we could sit around and reflect on all of high school for four days straight, spending the time talking to friends and acquaintences we might never, ever get to see again. Yes. That would be good use of those four days, I think. It would appear that finals and projects and presentations have won out, however.

Ever since the stress of my AP Statistics AP test ended in early May, I've come to love my classes ten times more. .. just because of the people I get to see every day. Oh, if I could encompass the hilarity of the conversations we've had lately...

There are so many members of my class that I never would have predicted I'd miss after graduation ... and now that I think about it, I'm going to miss them all terribly. :( Sigh.

It was another disgustingly hot day in Ashwaubenon. The school is probably going to be about 90 degrees tomorrow. Whoopee.

Aaaaand ... that's it.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

I'm a cashier at Festival Foods in De Pere, and today, I worked. While working, I got numerous comments from customers about how disgustingly hot it was outside, but somehow it still knocked the wind out of me when I stepped from the air-conditioning out into the thick, oppressive humidity at 3:30 in the afternoon. The interior of my car was, of course, at least 15 degrees warmer than even the outside air. The drive home was less than pleasant.

I have no reflections on graduation today -- just ones on how much I hate end-of-the-year projects. To avoid the risk of being whiny, I won't go into detail. On the bright side, it has shaped up to be an absolutely beautiful evening, and I think I'll go for a walk.

Saturday, May 27, 2006

Hello! Yesterday was our senior class trip to Great America, which was a wonderful break from the end-of-the-year stress that has been buzzing around my ears for weeks now. It was easily the best day I've had in a long time; I was able to spend all of it with five of my closest friends, riding roller coasters and eating overpriced slushies and churros. As an added bonus, for the first time in possibly my entire life, I spent roughly eight hours in the sun and did not get sunburned. Hooray for SPF 30!! It was a pain to keep reapplying it all day, but such are the necessary evils for those of us with paper-white skin. I've just about made peace with the fact that I'm never, ever going to be tan. Oh well. Skin cancer is lame.

Staring out the bus window on the way home reminded me of just how much I love the way late afternoon melts into early evening, when the sun sinks low in the sky and violet-colored shadows are cast over the surface of the world. It was a little bit symbolic and a little bit sombering, because during those brief, suspended moments I realized that those moments were likely the very last moments I would ever spend surrounded by the people from my graduating class, save for those we'll be sharing on graduation day. I've been avoiding talking about it much, or writing about it much more, because I think I'm afraid that if I do so, it will end up feeling much more real than I want it to. It's far easier to push those troubling thoughts away and turn to join an amusing conversation that's just been started a few feet away, refusing to dwell on what is perceived as a loss and trying, instead, to maximize the potential gain of th e final days of high school.

I can't believe graduation is only four school days away. It doesn't feel that close. Where did the past 18 years go?